NO TURNING BACK

I told my friend that i had stopped.

I told my friend it was so hard but I succeed.

I told my friend I am no longer longing for him.

I lied.

I did not know I was lying back then.

I just realized it now.

I realized that I lied to them and my own self.

Those feelings is still inside.

Those feelings never went away.

I am confused before.

But no more.

It is love.

I do like him.

And I love him.

Still, it is an unattainable love.

It's hurt.



A BREAKABLE THREAD



A true heatbreak is when you spying on your boyfriend using another number and character to text him asking wether he already had someone or not and he answered 'yes'.

Yes, that honest answer will definitely make you smile until the moment he mentioned someone else's name and not yours.

That time, you'll know what a heartbreak is.

That time, your heart will start to break into pisces.

That time, your cheek felt like slapped by someone.

Your hand will freeze, stop doing the thing you're doing.

And the tears slowly come down.

Leave him. He does not worth it.